when i went back to my july wrap-up and tbr, i realized it started the way most of my wrap-up and tbrs start : with a sigh and a quiet disappointment in myself because “i didn’t read as many books as i wish i did” or something along those lines. after july, i changed my goodreads reading goal from 70 books to 50 because i came to the realization that i don’t care how many books i read. i got so obsessed with the number that i actually didn’t even care anymore about whether or not i was enjoying myself.
it was unhealthy and so i decided to change that. i just want to enjoy myself because that’s all that matters for me when it comes to reading : ENJOYMENT. i also haven’t written a review in a while and i definitely wanna get back into it which is why reading out of enjoyment means a lot to me.
i went on holiday in august and i didn’t read a lot, i only started reading again in september and at the beginning of october ! here’s what i read :
July wasn’t a good reading month but actually, if I’m being honest, the last four months haven’t been that great reading wise. I moved houses so that took a lot of my time and I wasn’t able to read as much as I wanted. The Reading Rush happened and that was… fun. I completed the seven challenges and also read four books.
I found that of all the books I read for the last four months, nothing has really grasped my attention and I understood that I’ve been more focused on completing my Goodreads challenge rather than enjoying myself. Therefore, I lowered my challenge to 50 books which I completed last week.
The Wallflower Wager by Tessa Dare (Girl Meets Duke #3) (3 stars) : this comes out on August 13th 2019. The Wallflower Wager was very cute and fluffy which was what I needed when I read it. It got much more serious which I absolutely didn’t expect towards the end and does deal with sexual abuse and pedophilia.
Hello Girls by Brittany Cavallaro and Emily Henry (3 stars) : The story follows Lucille and Winona, two seniors in high school, as they run away from their hometown. While I enjoyed the premise of the story a lot, I thought that the two main characters weren’t distinguishable enough in the narrative.
Twilight by Stephenie Meyer (4 stars / 3rd re-read) : Every Single One of my experience reading Twilight has been unique and what I take from in changes every time. That being said, I truly did enjoy this re-read and I annotated my copy of the book in a very hilarious way if I do say so myself.
Death Note, Vol. 9: Contactby Tsugumi Ohba and Takeshi Obata (Illustrator) (3 stars) : not my favorite and I’ve become less and less invested in the story as it goes on. However, reading Death Note has made me want to read more mangas (click here to read my GR update where a lot of people kindly recommended a lot of mangas for beginners)
Currently Reading :
This list is Dry AF and I’ve been reading these books for what feels like AGES.
June was not the best reading month which is disappointing to say the least. Even though this is still called Wrap-Up and TBR, I won’t be putting any specific books to read in my TBR. This year, I’ve come to realize more and more that I’m very much a mood reader and that TBR are a HUGE NO for me, they just don’t work. I feel like if I turn reading into somewhat of a chore, it’s pointless because it’s really not why I read. I’ve always read because 1) I wanted to 2) I love it.
I’ve had a little bit of a slump these last two months (even though I still am about 8-10 books ahead on my reading schedule) and I haven’t been enjoying anything as much as I wish I would. I maybe haven’t been in the right headspace and the last six months have been a little tough on my mental health and specifically my anxiety/stress but also just my relationship with myself. I’ve been in a dark mindset lately and I hate it so much because I truly have been getting better and better since I left high school (which is not to bash my HS experience, it was alright, I just personally wasn’t). So if I had One Thing to put in my July TBR, it would be to find the books that made me fall in love with reading in the first place. The summer is when I get the most reading done so I hope this year will be the case.
🌺Cress by Marissa Meyer (4 stars) : This installment is the first where I can confidently say I’m invested in the characters and the plot. They’re all much more fleshed-out and they were given proper agency where it felt like for example in Scarlet, we were kind of lost, searching around for meaning around this whole mission aka How To Deal With Levana (who btw, makes for a great villain but I wish she’d step up even more). I can honestly say that Meyer’s writing has improved a lot with this one.
🌺The Raven King by Maggie Stiefvater : I have honestly no idea what to expect with The Raven King. I have literally zero expectations because I love this series a lot and if I start expecting things, I know that I will be disappointed and I’m NOT ABOUT THAT LIFE.
April was a terrible reading month, let me just say this. Between the end of the semester and finals, my reading goal was not met. AT ALL. I finished all my exams last week so it’s time to get back on my reading game !
What I Read In April 2019
I read a total of… one book in April. Yup. Talk about a failure.
Carry On by Rainbow Rowell () : everybody has been hyping this book forEVER so it was time I got to it.
What I Read in May 2019
So to be honest, May wasn’t any better than April. Until the 15th of May, I was DROWNING in exams, stress and a huge craving for McDonalds.
Othello by William Shakespeare (): far from being my favorite Shakespearean play, I still thought Othello was decent. I didn’t enjoy it all that much, BUT Iago made it okay for me.
A Week To Be Wicked (Spindle Cove #2) by Tessa Dare () : was this cute ? yes. Was this the best thing I’ve read ? No. I liked it better than A Night To Surrender.
Unpregnant by Jenni Hendriks and Ted Caplan () : I will NEVER stop gushing about this book. EVER. It’s heart-warming, important, relevant, beautiful, hilarious and well-written. I had the time of my life reading it.
Onyx by Jennifer L. Armentrout (Lux #2)() : Again, loved it. The main character, Katy, becomes much more of her “own” person in this book and seeing her character arc and her progression is amazing.
The Foxhole Court (All for the Game #1) by Nora Sakavic () : originally, i dnf-ed this book @ 29% but it apparently seems like i physically and emotionally am incapable of seriously dnf-ing a book when i think it might still have a potential, even a tiny tiny bit.
Serpent And Dove by Shelby Mahurin () : GOD DID I LOVE THIS BOOK !!! If there’s one book I recommend for you to absolutely read, it’s this one (and Unpregnant). This book is an absolute gem, the characters, the world-building, the writing style, the plot. EVERYTHING is iconic and beautifully written. RECOMMEND x100000.
Again, But Better by Christine Riccio () : I was really disappointed by this book, even though the original idea seemed great. My main issues were the constant drama and borderline cheating.
Slayer by Kiersten White (Slayer #1) () : despite the compelling writing style that absolutely matched the main character’s struggles, Slayer wasn’t as good as I thought it would be. Was it that my expectations were too high or that I’m weirdly overprotective of anything Buffy-related ? Maybe. I just didn’t feel connected to either the plot or the characters.
Vicious (All Saints High #1) by L.J Shen (): this one was definitely OUT of my comfort zone but I enjoyed it (if you get passed the whole alpha-male/”you’re mine” BS)
Queen of Air and Darkness (The Dark Artifices #3) by Cassandra Clare : FINALLY, we’re here. Look, I know Cassie is milking this series and people are annoyed but I’m not. She created a great world and imo, it’d be a waste not to dive deeper into it. Granted, it’s hard to get into TDA without having read the other books so the annoyance is 1000% valid.
The Exact Opposite of Okay by Laura Steven: the premise is interesting but please, let’s stop with this OVERUSE of brackets. It’s not necessary.
I Hope You Get This Message by Farah Naz Rishi : I’m sold by this concept of aliens giving a week notice to the Earth and humans until the infamous yet mysterious “Judgment Day”.
The Wall of Winnipeg and Me by Mariana Zapata : is this the new me now ? I’m not used to reading contemporary romances but I, for some reason, still want to give it a try.
TBR for June 2019
During June, I have an internship in a law firm but I’m still hoping to get some reading done. I’m really bad at doing TBRs because I mostly read based on how I’m feeling and honestly, one may never know what my next mood is going to be.
Let’s all say a prayer for this small-ish TBR and hope I’ll get to actually touch one of these books next month. That being said, I’m getting my finals results within the next two weeks and it’s safe to say I’m ABSOLUTELY terrified. That’s it for today !
What’s on your TBR ? Have you read any of the books I mentioned and what did you think ? Leave a comment below !
Not gonna lie, the beginning of March wasn’t glorious. I just got out of a tiny slump and I’m better now. I’m also 5 books ahead on my Goodreads challenge (I wish I didn’t give it all that importance, but I tend to get really competitive when it comes to beating the numbers) and I still feel like it’s not good enough. I wanna read ALL THE BOOKS, it’s not my fault !
What I read
🌹The Sun is also a star by Nicola Yoon (⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️): gushed about it there.
🌹Romanov by Nadine Brandes (⭐️⭐️): this was a big disappointment for me and I had a lengthy go at it. You can find my review here
🌹City of Heavenly Fire by Cassandra Clare (⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️): I had forgotten that this book was of monstrous size and that you can probably give someone a concussion with it. Nevertheless, still enjoyed it lots.
🌹The Beast in the Jungle by Henry James (⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️) : kind of life-changing, strongly recommend !
🌹The Seven husbands of Evelyn Hugo by Taylor Jenkins Reid (⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️) : check out my review here !
🌹Heroine by Mindy McGinnis (⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️) : Review to come… (ARC)
🌹Love and Other Curses by Michael Ford Thomas (⭐️⭐️): this… wasn’t what I expected and I’m super disappointed. (ARC)
🌹A Midsummer Night’s Dream by William Shakespeare(⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️) : I’ve been in a mood to read more classics and especially more Shakespeare. Imo this is a great comedy.
Head over to my Goodreads if you wanna know what I thought about these books !
🌹Emma by Jane Austen : I really love Jane Austen’s writing but for some reason, I have to read it in French (my native tongue lol not just saying it) otherwise I can’t do it.
TBR for August 2019
🌹King Of Scars by Leigh “My Queen” Bardugo : it’s time, folks. I’ve been putting this off for some reason but I REALLY WANNA GET TO IT BECAUSE I LOVE LEIGH SO MUCH.
🌹Anything by Shakespeare :I haven’t decided which play I wanna read next.
🌹Carry On by Rainbow Rowell : the pitch for this appeals to me a lot and I’ve had it to my TBR for ages.
🌹Slayer by Kiersten White : I’m a massive Buffy fan so I can’t wait to read this one !
🌹The Silent Patient by Alex Michaelides : this is basically my attempt at getting out of my comfort zone reading-wise.
// One month book-buying ban //
I’ve made the decision to stop buying books for a month (~omg look at me, I’m so brave~) because (and I know I’ve said it before but the situation got a lot worse) my bank account is suffering. a lot. Hereare the books I have in my current TBR (bought). I tried to do a two-month book-buying ban last month and miserably failed several times (as if telling myself I wouldn’t buy a single book for two months provoked some sort of chemical reaction in my brain and made me buy twice as much as I normally would). So until the 18th of April, I refuse to buy a single book.